Allow that to sink in. You are love. No need in looking for it or trying to find it in anything or anyone else. It’s an inside job.
Everything is an inside job. Your life is an exact replica of what’s going on inside of you. How you love yourself, how you treat your own self, how you think of yourself, how you feel about yourself, how integral you are to yourself, and the boundaries you set for yourself reflects in the external relationships you have with others and how others deal with and treat you.
Love on yourself, and see just how magical your life can truly be.
Eleven years ago today, August 31st, 2009 I packed two weeks worth of clothes & I moved to New York.
In 2008 I visited for the first time and I knew immediately in my heart that this is where Iβm supposed to be. A little over a year later a made that plunge. I stayed with an aunt in Long Island for about six months, then my grandfather passed, and I used all the money I had to get back to Michigan. I had no money to get back to NY, so my youngest brother paid my way back to NY, but I still didn’t have enough to get back to Long Island. After being in Long Island for those six months I knew I didn’t want to go back there. I moved to NY to be in NYC. So I decided to check myself into a shelter.
While in the shelter I had a caseworker whose office was full of plants. I asked my caseworker for a stem of a plant. He gave me a stem of a pothos plant. That was in 2010. I got my first very own NYC apartment in October of 2010.
Not realizing it until just recently, but my pothos has been with me my whole NYC journey. We have been through a lot of things together, but we grew, and grew, and kept growing. Here it is ten years later, and eleven years all together I’ve grown one single stem into ten plants. ππ
I’m so grateful for the journey! It’s truly been an amazing one! π
2020 has been an amazing year for me. This year, July 25th I turned 40 years old! I’m just so proud of me. I knew that I would finally get here, to a place of love and freedom. I’m so proud of all the hard work that I’ve done to become the best version of me. I now fully understand that I am perfect just the way that I am, and I’ve always been. I no longer seek for attention, to be validated, accepted, approved or affirmed. Why? Because I’ve learned how to give my own self those things, and it feels so so so good! There is such a liberty there. I’m proud of my skin, my body – me! I love every bit of me. None of that was the case before though, but I’m here now b*tches! Naw, but I’m very very happy. Life is and has been amazing to me. Trust me, there is a back story to all of this, but right now I’m appreciating where I am currently. I’ll be bring you up to speed in other entries, okay?
The leaves of the swiss cheese plant are large and heart-shaped and develop slits as they grow. These slits function in nature to help the plant survive gusty winds and heavy downpours in its native rain forest environment. The swiss cheese plant has aerial roots that support the growth of this plant up to 10 feet and hang from the stem.
Swiss cheese plants require full shade, and soil that is chalky, loam, clay, sand; well drained; slightly acidic, neutral, slightly alkaline. It has average water needs. Watering should be done each week or when the top 3 cm of soil has dried out. Water thoroughly until the soil is saturated and excess water is fully drained from the drain hole.
A Monstera! Smh…, listen there are two plants in particular that gets me all in a frenzy; a good frenzy too, and that is a Fiddle Leaf Fig and a Monstera. Let me tell you. So when I saw this little baby swiss cheese plant I was too through. Baaby! It hasn’t developed its slits yet, so that’s why I felt I had to have this one. I want to see it grow into the mighty Monstera it will be. So this won’t be the last time you see her. And oh, her name is Her Royal Highness!
Tree aeonium (aeonium arboreum), also known as Irish Rose or Houseleek Tree, is a succulent dwarf shrub, up to 2 meters high, endemic to the western Canary Islands. It grows on weathered volcanic soil in full sun or partial shade. Tree aeonium can also be grown in a glasshouse. There are several attractive cultivars such as the purple ‘Zwartkop’ and variegated ‘variegatum’. Yellow flowers appear in the spring.
They prefer full sunlight, sand, loam; well drained; slightly acidic, neutral, slightly alkaline soil. They are drought-tolerant. Allow soil to dry between waterings. Water thoroughly until the soil is saturated and excess water is fully drained from the drain hole.
When I first got a Tree Aeonium, I felt that it would be very easy because duh, it’s a succulent, but that wasn’t necessarily true – at first. Through many of the leaves falling off, and moving it to another space in my home I was able to figure it out and it’s doing fairly well. It’s actually grown about a half inch. So I’m a very proud plant daddy!